I wasn’t one of those kids who always knew exactly what I wanted to do when I “grew up.” I bounced around a couple majors in college before landing in sociology. I’ve had several jobs in my 30 years on earth. Some I’ve loved, and some…well, we’ve all had those. But this job as a photographer? It’s been pretty great. I get to forever preserve people’s moments – both big and small – all of them precious.
For the last year and a half, though, this business has taken a backseat to a new job – the hardest, most rewarding job I’ve ever done – being a mama.
From the moment I breathed in Augustus’ sweet smell, I knew. This was the job I was meant to do. The one I’d been waiting for.
Still, I’ve been able to be both photographer and mama, shooting on weekends, often with Augustus and Matthew playing nearby, doing the “business-y” stuff at night and even shooting a wedding with a tiny two-month-old babe in a sling. And I’ve been so lucky that my moments away from Augustus are few. But…there’s always a but, isn’t there?
When I’m shooting, or checking my email while we play in the yard, working on taxes or planning our weekend around another family’s schedule, I just can’t shake the feeling that there’s somewhere else I’m supposed to be. Running a business is more than a full-time job. There’s always a tug at my pants leg – often a literal tug, as my tiny babe has grown into a toddler, and sometimes a more figurative one. But that somewhere else I’m supposed to be? It’s with him. With my family.
The question that keeps coming into my head is “How much is my time away from them worth?” And the answer – at least right now – is always the same. It’s worth much more than I can charge.
And so, we have made the decision to close H&M Photography. It’s a bittersweet decision, and one that we’ve thought about for some time, but, ultimately, a decision that brings me such a sense of “rightness.”
I want to thank you, so sincerely, for the support you’ve given us. This business started by photographing a few friends, and grew almost exclusively by referrals from my clients – most who have also become friends (some of my best friends, in fact). So many of you have believed in this business from the very beginning – before the beginning, really. I’m forever grateful that you helped to get me to this place I’m at now. And, oh, what a sweet place it is. I feel so lucky.
So what now? I’m going to spend a little time just being a mama. A mama who is fully present. Who doesn’t worry about that potential client whose phone call she missed while she was napping with her kid. Who picks up a camera to capture memories of her own sweet and quickly growing baby boy. A mom who knows where I want to be right now, at this moment, and is SO unbelievably thankful to have that option.
While I’ll be keeping some images for my own purposes, I won’t be keeping images from all of the sessions and weddings I’ve shot. If you’re interested in purchasing any of your digital files, I’m offering them at deeply discounted prices. The last day to purchase these images will be November 10, after which point I can no longer supply those files.
There are many amazing photographers in this area (many who I’m lucky enough to know personally and have worked with), so you won’t be hard pressed to find someone who can wonderfully capture your big and little moments. Please email me if you would like specific recommendations – I’m happy to make them.
So this is probably my last post in this little space. Please, please keep in touch! I love keeping up with many of you on Facebook and Instagram, and I’d like to stay in touch with text messages, emails and play dates!
Thank you so much for your support of H&M Photography – it’s meant the world to us, truly.
Heather (and Matthew) Maynard